This week has been exciting, well mentally exciting. After so many wasted hours on finding what do to next, I have resolved that I already possess everything I need to accomplish this goal. I have been following the Primal Potential podcasts and heavily diving into the truth and what I have told myself the truth is. The truth is what happens and what we do are entirely separate. This week I will probably lose my job, but that doesn’t mean I need to eat my body weight in cookies. The newly found perspective of truth has really shifted my thoughts. I feel slightly more in control and this is snowballing. I hope you all are having a good week.
Keeping Focus.
This season has been the sickest I’ve ever been in my life. I had the zika revenge for a week, and now the flu. This has made me really question the relationship I have with food. Usually, if anything goes right or wrong I will eat and blame whatever situation on that indulgence. Not this week. This week I suffer without stuffing my face. While my feelings seem more raw this way, I am starting to internalize that putting food in its place certainly is not helping the cause. I hope you all are having a great week. 🙂
Questions and Answers.
Last year, when I graduated college (whoop!) I realized I had really gained a lot of weight. This is not something I normally think about because image is not something that registers as important on my scale. I became aware of this problem because none of my clothes fit me and I was forced to seek out larger and larger options. Once I was able to calm down from graduation, I realized I needed to raise the black flag and over take this problem. I gained 25 more pounds after making this realization and raising the black flag. Now, being quite a few months later I have resolved to be serious.
This has the following issues:
- What does being serious look like?
- Planning meals
- Planning workouts
- Losing weigh each week
- Is obsessing over this process making it worse?
- Is why I got this bad important?
- How do I uncover the underlying issue?
- Writing it out
- Negative feelings
- Sadness?
- Loneliness?
- Failure?
- Stupidity?
- What do I do once I know what the issue is?
- Plan for changing those feelings when they happen.
- How do I plan to succeed?
- What does success look like?
- Losing weight
- Being proud
- What is inhibiting that success?
- Excuses
- Lack of planning
- Lack of follow through
- Fear of failure
- Negative feelings
- Writing it out
Reasons losing weight is the only option:
- To fit into the clothes in my closet
- Impact: much cheaper than buying new ones
- To look good naked
- Impact: hopefully to get it on.
- To expose the muscles I have underneath
- Impact: to grow said muscles and bring them to the gun show.
- To stop holding myself back
- Impact: I’ve noticed the more weight I put on the less I want to do anything
- To not get sore or winded when I do basic stuff
Welcome!
The purpose of this blog is a platform for discovery and reflection, which I think is encompassed by the title. When a pirate ship would see another ship they would raise the black flag in a hope that she would surrender or give them a good fight. That is how I see most of life’s events. On this you can find generous discussion on various lifestyle and personal issues.